Saturday, April 4, 2009
Hurt......
Smoke........
Close your eyes, imagine everything you've ever wanted right infront of you, blink and it's gone. The water, pours from your eyes, reaches your lips, and disappears into a black hole. Everyone sees your face, reddening with each word passing from your lips. It turns hot, and here you are, left with the worst feelings in the world. Your heart, torn out of it's usual hiding place, and the area left, is found years later, dusty and once again, empty. Not everyone needs love in their lives, and not everyone cares if they're with someone else, but you realize that can't be alone forever. You see him pass with his new girlfriend, and every time you see them, you die inside, you die multiple deaths..... You're still wondering if he feels the same. His eyes wander for a moment, just long enough to lock with yours, and then, he quickly turns back to his new world, where you don't belong. You wish for just one minute, that you gave him the time he wanted, that you gave the time to fix things, and that you, for once, listened to someone else. He was so into himself, everything was him, nothing was about you, nothing, but now, everything is about her. So, you find someone else, someone that will have to suffice for the everything that you lost, but kissing him just isn't the same. You feel his hands slowly travel from your back to your hips, and you stop him, it isn't him that you want. His heart, you had it. His love, you had it. Now, you don't, you don't have anything that you want, and you surely have nothing that you need. Parties, football games, movies, music, they're all different, nothing has the meaning it had when you were with him. You realize that everything happens for a reason, and this really needed to happen. If you were meant to be, then it will happen, but for now, things just haven't gone as planned. You need your space, and he needs his time, he doesn't need you. You don't know what is going to happen next, but it isn't something that you've been looking forward to, and it isn't something good. You love him with your whole heart, there just isn't a way to express it. Everything you've said, you've meant. You have so many thoughts running through your head, but you can't tell him, you have the fear of sounding stupid and him just forgetting about you totally. You need to be open, you need to show your feelings, and you need to be with him. Everything happens for a reason...... Everything...... You are my everything still....
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Adorable.....
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Untitled..... How does it feel?
I love you and I will love you forever. Nothing will ever tear us apart because you're it. I'm counting on you baby, make me better. I have nothing to say...... but I am sorry.
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Can't read my..... No, he can't read my poker face......
Perfection (n) - an ideal instance; a perfect embodiment of a concept.
Why is everyone always trying to make things perfect? It rarely ever works, unless they reach their own level of perfection, what they believe is perfect. No one has the perfect relationship, the perfect soul, the perfect anything, but I guess everyone has their own estimations. There is not one point or thing in my life that I could say has reached perfection. I wish there was. Try and try again as the old addage goes. I'm a fuck up, I always have been, always will be. I want to try so hard to make everything better, to make everything right, but as always I know I will fail. I'm not pessimistic, I just don't see a point in looking for rainbows and butterflies when they're not always going to be there. I've come to the painful realization that you need to do what makes you happy, whether other people like it or not. I've been very lucky my whole life, not always having things handed to me, I learned to value a lot of things. So what if I think differently? Everyone does. When I'm happy, you'll know. You can't push me, you can't think that if you change the least bit and hope I notice that I'll be happy. Everything in life is hard, but you can make things easy. Our situation is completely fucked up and so is the way we treat each other. Shape up or ship out, that's my favorite saying, and it has so much meaning. There isn't much more I could handle, so if you think you can't take the extra steps to make it work, we're nothing. I love you, I've loved you always. Don't make me regret this, please?
Monday, February 16, 2009
There was something different about us, then.....
The band is composed of 4 young gentlemen. Matt (lead vocals and guitar), Neil (vocals and guitar), Brian (bass), and T. (drums). Their music isn't bubblegum pop or anything too dark and mysterious. They are classified as Adult Alternative/Pop Rock and there is never any despair or wallowing in their musical ways. When you listen to a cd or even a song by The Five Percent, you realize how sincere they really are when it comes to music and lyrics. I think that their music is very airy and has a tinge of rock here and there. They get their inspiration from the riches of the world but don't necessarily need the riches to keep writing and giving their music with equal opportunity. The band has been across the world many times, performing concerts and selling thousands and thousands of cds. There isn't much difference between TFP and a nationally acclaimed band, the only difference is a couple dollars really. TFP is very modest about their music and they all say how much they love to write and provide a sense of comfort and understanding to their fans.
Unfortunately I've only been lucky enough to see them once, but they make appearances across the U.S. and locally too. It's great, now that I'm 21, I could go and see them play in bars so it makes it much easier than it used to be. They have such a great sound and great lyrics, the only thing is that they are on an independant label so you'll never hear them on the radio. If they were to get signed by a record label I think they'd get a lot of radio time, they'd be really popular locally but I'm sure they'd hit it big across the U.S. TFP is also featured in the "Concert for A Cause" show annually held here in Wilkes Barre, and they make many appearances at local bars and sometimes colleges. You can now purchase their music on ITunes which is pretty cool and I know that the local record stores have their cds too. If you have any time I really think you should check them out. Their website is; The Five Percent.
I'm glad to get to share this information about such a great band with everyone and I'd really suggest you check them out. You'll understand why I love them so much if you do.
On a completely different note, I was talking to a friend of mine earlier and they gave me the link to a youtube video that was pretty hilarious in my estimation. It was some idiot playing super mario and he was completely frustrated, but he said such unnecessary things that it was pretty funny. I have so much to do but the fact that I could sit here and tool around on the internet is always good. I haven't posted in so long, it felt good to get this going again. Hopefully I'll be making another post soon and you can all enjoy. :] Make the most of today :]